Masters Of Illusion - Scared Straight

Pete Rock & Deda-Marked 4 Death

Pete Rock & InI - No More Words

Grand Agent - This Is What They Meant ft. Pete Rock (Ge-ology Remix)

Cannibal Ox - Pigeon

Not Yet Titled......

Though I have moved on, The sight of you still lingers thru my mind
So, So fine, at least that was my thought at one time
Your smile, A pleasantrie to me like the rays of sunshine
I guess for us to be, just seems like it was not the right tiime

I have many visions of you, a thought that is now a lost memory
Trying to figure... ...out... what kind of vibes are you sending me
Its as if this gift won't allow my heart to shift
It won't allow me to move away from thee
Pictures of you etched all thru my memory

I want to forget about you, but my heart won't allow me
I want to hate you, wondering if you even have thoughts about me
This reaction is much deeper than physical attraction
My actions wish to cease this plan, however, my hearts longs to understand

I wish for you to evaporate, as if you never existed
If only these feelings could be removed in this instant
Still, the love in me longs to give
This is no way for one man to live

To live, not knowing if you were the one to be
Wondering is this a truth that I am to see

My love for you runs deep, many nights, thinking of you, I cannot seem to sleep
I am lost without you, I just want you near, I just everything to be clear
Why would God allow are paths to cross, only to leave my heart naked....I am still not clear
I can still hear your voice whispering to my ears
If only you could be near, I just need to hear
I need to know your truest intentions
Written across my heart, grabbing my undivided attention

I just want to understand
Is having you a part of Gods plan
I am really trying to understand

I can only hope for an answer to the many question I pose
I just need to know, are you the one that God has chose
I suppose the answer will be revealed
Like I said before, You are to good to be real
Its not just your, smile, not even your sex appeal
Its is this deep connection towards you that I feel
Something of this magnitude......This has to be real
Until the time arrives.....I can only hold to what it is that I truely feel
I just need clarity, understanding.......I just need to know if these feelings I have towards you are for real......
Until then, I guess this is Gods way of telling me to remain still.......

Still Standing

This is my first time blogging, a friend of mine actually put me on to the many advantages of utilizing this format. I am an aspring writer of poetry/rhyme/spoken word as well as fictional(the fictional part is still in the works) Anyway, i have been writing poetry for well over 12 years now. What inspires me most, it is a combination of real life events that has shaped me over the years, my spiritual beliefs, some of the many people that i have encountered over the years but my first love which inspires me most, is my love for hip-hop. I began following hip hop back in 1987 during that ole skool error. I could go on and on naming off some of my favorite hip hop artist, but the list would be way too long, i still follow it till this day. And by the way, when it comes to rhymes, at my best, i can still give these young cats a run for there money. I do respect a lot of the newer generation of artist especially young jeezy. Anyway, my goal is exposure and i figured this would be a good way to start and before i forget, i definitely have something for the ladies, i write a lot of romantic poetry as well but if you were to ever meet me in person you would never think so. I hope you enjoy some of the many entries that i will post on my blog site and i hope to inspire change, encourage and be a voice for those who cannot speak on the many challenges that many african american brothers and sisters are faced with but i would also like to reach out to people of all ethnicities to at least if nothing else, provoke some thought as well as discussion. My very first entry that i will post, originally, i had titled it "Born with the will of a champion." But then as i read over it again the other day i decided to call it "Still Standing" enjoy.




STILL STANDING

Often
I feel the walls closing in
As if I am being pushed closer to the ledge
Why is it
That a man should be pushed so close to the edge

Fighting thru this rage that i debate
unleashing my wrath
At times
That is what i comtemplate

Why is it
That a man should be pushed so close to the edge

I fight
I fight
I fight
For a second chance
A brand new dance
Dreaming, hoping, believing
That it will all turn out well

Trying so hard
Hoping
Avoiding many pitfalls
So that I don't land myself inside a cell

Still, why is it
That one man should be pushed so close to the edge

Every which way that I turn
Realizing, God chose me
Still many oppose me
Substaining peace
Knowing that soon, it will be my turn

As I pray right before I should lay
Tommorrow is a new day

I ask God to grant me the strength
The wisdom and inner peace
Once i let go, then comes a release

Still, I must push back against all my foes
Substain myself thru all the lows
I have suffered many many blows
Yet
Here I am, still here
Still Standing
Still Standing
Still Standing

This is no time to sit
Complain or have a fit
The storm may get rough
Still
I refuse to quit
I won't give in or give up
after all
God won't let me fall
I was not designed in that way
This is role i was chosen to play
This shall be the day

All is going as planned
Here I still stand
Yes indeed,
I am still standing
I am still standing