Monday, September 20, 2010

LOST AND WANDERING AIMLESSLY......

As each hour passes thru the midnight hour........Time seems to walk right past me.....Restless as I begin to toss.......As I watch the clock keep turning......
What is it about this desire.......this fire inside my loins that keeps burning.....

Sometimes I wonder......Do I even qualify....Or is it safe to say, that all ...of this is nothing more than a lie........

I don't know what it is that I am to believe........Amongst the vultures.......seeking there prey......Awaiting another victim to slay.......
This game we call life..........Brings more venegence than a woman scorned.......
My heart grows torn........Since I was born.......I have been torn........Right smacked dab in between........Trying to figure out what this all really means.....

When I suffer........I suffer in solitude......Confined, Silently, I dwell alone......
Alone with my thoughts........Spiritually, I have grown conflicted.......Closing the doors of my heart.......Or the love that used to dwell within me........

I just need to know from you........Why did you put me here in the first place.......
What is it really about........Compeating in this rat race just to find your face....

Me Angry.......I suppose.......Why must it be me that you have chose to expose to the multitude.........In a sickened, sin stricken existance......Trying to find devine healing......
To be all the way real.......I have lost my zeal.........Life has lost it appeal........
This is not the way that I should feel.........To differentiate......To discover.......Only to find that it is my heart that needs to heal.....

I need you to reveal yourself to me........I need evidence that is substantial........I need proof that this is my call.........I want to fall........I want to throw in the towel......My heart is tired.......My soul has grown weary.........Trying to define theory........I just need to know.......I need you to show......That you do hear me.....

I call to you in the midnight hours.......My vunerability.....this time has gone exposed......
Yet, why do you choose for me to win......Though I can find nothing left within me....

How I be of help.......Why do you keep me......Perserving me on this journey, so that I can rescue someone else.....

Lord......this is too hard for me.......I still hold strong.......As the night goes along.....Or at least I try to appear that way.....

I just don't know anymore........I just don't know.......Simplify this for me.......I really need you to show.....

I need you to be my caregiver.......I need escape......I am trusting you with all I have, knowing that only you can deliver what my heart so desires......

I can only do so much........I need to feel the touch of your hand.......I need to experience thee......Open my blind eyes.......I just want to see again.....

Open my heart.......I just want to be me again.......
I just need to know.......Where are you hiding.....Where must I find you......
Restore me Dear Father........Recreate this vessel.......So that I may breath again.....

I am just one man.......I am just one........I am asking you.....I need you to come....
Give me rest.........You said in your word that your yoke is light and your burden is easy........

I know I have more than fallen short.......If I was to go to court......I would be guilty as charge.........
This rage within......While seeking my true devine......My only friend.......To the heavens and thru the earth, I go to all ends.......
Seeking you......So I can make amends........I don't need a lecture.......I need my source, My devine protector.......

I just one man......Just one.........So why should I feel as if everything thus far.....Has been nothing more than a waste.......I really need to see your face....

Allow me to lye in greener pastures......I ask you.......Let today be that day.......
I need to know you Lord........I need to hear what you have to say......

Nonsense is the only thing that seems to make any sense......
I just need a sign......I just need evidence.......

As I go about.........I must admit......I wanna quit.......I have so many doubts.....
As I go about..........I will also admit.......I need you.......Its you I can't do without......It is you My Lord, I cannot do this without.......




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