Thursday, November 4, 2010
Monday, September 20, 2010
LOST AND WANDERING AIMLESSLY......
As each hour passes thru the midnight hour........Time seems to walk right past me.....Restless as I begin to toss.......As I watch the clock keep turning......
What is it about this desire.......this fire inside my loins that keeps burning.....
Sometimes I wonder......Do I even qualify....Or is it safe to say, that all ...of this is nothing more than a lie........
I don't know what it is that I am to believe........Amongst the vultures.......seeking there prey......Awaiting another victim to slay.......
This game we call life..........Brings more venegence than a woman scorned.......
My heart grows torn........Since I was born.......I have been torn........Right smacked dab in between........Trying to figure out what this all really means.....
When I suffer........I suffer in solitude......Confined, Silently, I dwell alone......
Alone with my thoughts........Spiritually, I have grown conflicted.......Closing the doors of my heart.......Or the love that used to dwell within me........
I just need to know from you........Why did you put me here in the first place.......
What is it really about........Compeating in this rat race just to find your face....
Me Angry.......I suppose.......Why must it be me that you have chose to expose to the multitude.........In a sickened, sin stricken existance......Trying to find devine healing......
To be all the way real.......I have lost my zeal.........Life has lost it appeal........
This is not the way that I should feel.........To differentiate......To discover.......Only to find that it is my heart that needs to heal.....
I need you to reveal yourself to me........I need evidence that is substantial........I need proof that this is my call.........I want to fall........I want to throw in the towel......My heart is tired.......My soul has grown weary.........Trying to define theory........I just need to know.......I need you to show......That you do hear me.....
I call to you in the midnight hours.......My vunerability.....this time has gone exposed......
Yet, why do you choose for me to win......Though I can find nothing left within me....
How I be of help.......Why do you keep me......Perserving me on this journey, so that I can rescue someone else.....
Lord......this is too hard for me.......I still hold strong.......As the night goes along.....Or at least I try to appear that way.....
I just don't know anymore........I just don't know.......Simplify this for me.......I really need you to show.....
I need you to be my caregiver.......I need escape......I am trusting you with all I have, knowing that only you can deliver what my heart so desires......
I can only do so much........I need to feel the touch of your hand.......I need to experience thee......Open my blind eyes.......I just want to see again.....
Open my heart.......I just want to be me again.......
I just need to know.......Where are you hiding.....Where must I find you......
Restore me Dear Father........Recreate this vessel.......So that I may breath again.....
I am just one man.......I am just one........I am asking you.....I need you to come....
Give me rest.........You said in your word that your yoke is light and your burden is easy........
I know I have more than fallen short.......If I was to go to court......I would be guilty as charge.........
This rage within......While seeking my true devine......My only friend.......To the heavens and thru the earth, I go to all ends.......
Seeking you......So I can make amends........I don't need a lecture.......I need my source, My devine protector.......
I just one man......Just one.........So why should I feel as if everything thus far.....Has been nothing more than a waste.......I really need to see your face....
Allow me to lye in greener pastures......I ask you.......Let today be that day.......
I need to know you Lord........I need to hear what you have to say......
Nonsense is the only thing that seems to make any sense......
I just need a sign......I just need evidence.......
As I go about.........I must admit......I wanna quit.......I have so many doubts.....
As I go about..........I will also admit.......I need you.......Its you I can't do without......It is you My Lord, I cannot do this without.......
Copyright(c)2010 Roberto Denaro Styles
Copyright(c)2010 Roberto Denaro Styles
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Sunday, May 2, 2010
What Do You Know About That????
To stand As the Man that God Made me to be
Strong....Confidient, going boldly.......The masterplan is what I desire to see
Praying that He will remember me
He shall not forsake me
In my short lived History......Many events run thru my memory
Many times treated as A threat
Very demeaning.....Getti...ng very little respect
An object to the powers that be......Many hardships that my eyes were forced to see
Thinking to myself.....How could this be......leaving to bleed
So much heartache toppled with betrayal.......like this is something that I need...
I have watched loved ones die
With nothing as much as a tear dropping from my eye
The war going on inside my heart was a part of my near demise
Many things I witnessed.......to no surprise....if u could see the look in my eyes
A blank cold stare, my heart was not there.....at that time, i really didn't care
Love to me was just a four letter word.......A lie moving thru the air
I didn't care who I hurt.....The heart of me was soiled to dirt
Pain is all I had to gain
How was I too remain sane
How do U explain
So much potential.....All the possibilities lying right before me
Many adored me.......Now they ignore me, a whole different story
Over time.....I had to put the pieces back together......Storms I had to weather
So much missing within me
Not to friendly.......A tendancy
Viewing everyone as my enemy
A Soldier on my on front lines
However.......It was God stepping in a drawing the line
Now I go, I purged and refined
I will say, He is always on time
In my prime....crime infactuated.....rhyme with no reason
I couldn't wait for fate, just to wait thru this dreary season
But everything does happen for a reason
Afterall, many wanted to see me fall
The man had a plan.....the courtstand.....then the prison wall
So much more could have been lost
Actually, ground has been gained
When I surrendered....As I called upon his name
The Game brought a flame......I was now in my last inning
My whole world began spinning
I wasn't really winning......Just sinning to no ending
But Now.....I am exactly where He wants me to be
Opening my eyes to the many possibilities that I now see
Now I am free......Not because of me....but He that is in me.
No longer am I angered.......Solemn I go.......I feel a release
A warmth......A gentle touch.....this is divine.....most call it inner peace
All that oppose me......Now that must cease.......I can say, I have finally found my peace.......let everything else cease.......
No weapon formed.....Can perform, Nor go against me........Thank You Jesus!!!!!!
Strong....Confidient, going boldly.......The masterplan is what I desire to see
Praying that He will remember me
He shall not forsake me
In my short lived History......Many events run thru my memory
Many times treated as A threat
Very demeaning.....Getti...ng very little respect
An object to the powers that be......Many hardships that my eyes were forced to see
Thinking to myself.....How could this be......leaving to bleed
So much heartache toppled with betrayal.......like this is something that I need...
I have watched loved ones die
With nothing as much as a tear dropping from my eye
The war going on inside my heart was a part of my near demise
Many things I witnessed.......to no surprise....if u could see the look in my eyes
A blank cold stare, my heart was not there.....at that time, i really didn't care
Love to me was just a four letter word.......A lie moving thru the air
I didn't care who I hurt.....The heart of me was soiled to dirt
Pain is all I had to gain
How was I too remain sane
How do U explain
So much potential.....All the possibilities lying right before me
Many adored me.......Now they ignore me, a whole different story
Over time.....I had to put the pieces back together......Storms I had to weather
So much missing within me
Not to friendly.......A tendancy
Viewing everyone as my enemy
A Soldier on my on front lines
However.......It was God stepping in a drawing the line
Now I go, I purged and refined
I will say, He is always on time
In my prime....crime infactuated.....rhyme with no reason
I couldn't wait for fate, just to wait thru this dreary season
But everything does happen for a reason
Afterall, many wanted to see me fall
The man had a plan.....the courtstand.....then the prison wall
So much more could have been lost
Actually, ground has been gained
When I surrendered....As I called upon his name
The Game brought a flame......I was now in my last inning
My whole world began spinning
I wasn't really winning......Just sinning to no ending
But Now.....I am exactly where He wants me to be
Opening my eyes to the many possibilities that I now see
Now I am free......Not because of me....but He that is in me.
No longer am I angered.......Solemn I go.......I feel a release
A warmth......A gentle touch.....this is divine.....most call it inner peace
All that oppose me......Now that must cease.......I can say, I have finally found my peace.......let everything else cease.......
No weapon formed.....Can perform, Nor go against me........Thank You Jesus!!!!!!
Lost Without You.....
No matter how hard I try
These feelings I have for you won't seem to die
Can't escape the feelings I have for you
So true......I am lost without you
Every waking moment, You are always on my brain
Yet.....I am left to endure so much pain
Yes....it is true....Can't escape the feelings that I have for you
So true......I don't w...ant to be without you
When I think you.....I can't seem to close this chapter
Afterall, It is your heart that I am after....
Indeed, this is a known fact
Exact and true....What am I to do
Can't escape this longing I have to be with you
As the nights pass......I thought we had something that would last
A good friend told me that this too would pass
Time seems to move so fast......
I don't want this to pass.......I long to have you
What is a man to do......You mean so much to me
I just need you to see that you mean the world to me
I need you to see that everything I speak, from the heart
I need you to believe that my love 4 u is true
What am I do to.......
Can't escape the feelings......this longing.......or just being without you
Everything I speak is true......Yes, again I say it......I just cannot go another day being without you.......
These feelings I have for you won't seem to die
Can't escape the feelings I have for you
So true......I am lost without you
Every waking moment, You are always on my brain
Yet.....I am left to endure so much pain
Yes....it is true....Can't escape the feelings that I have for you
So true......I don't w...ant to be without you
When I think you.....I can't seem to close this chapter
Afterall, It is your heart that I am after....
Indeed, this is a known fact
Exact and true....What am I to do
Can't escape this longing I have to be with you
As the nights pass......I thought we had something that would last
A good friend told me that this too would pass
Time seems to move so fast......
I don't want this to pass.......I long to have you
What is a man to do......You mean so much to me
I just need you to see that you mean the world to me
I need you to see that everything I speak, from the heart
I need you to believe that my love 4 u is true
What am I do to.......
Can't escape the feelings......this longing.......or just being without you
Everything I speak is true......Yes, again I say it......I just cannot go another day being without you.......
Saturday, May 1, 2010
My Loyalty.......The Inheritance of Royalty
I don't do try.....I set the bar very high
You can't teach it.....You just reach it
Don't bother to preach it if you can't reach it
I don't need a speech......You can't reach me with some blindside quote
Take note.........
Heed the Heart of a true champion
Lots of blood and sweat........Yet....You won't see me spending years crying tears to my peers behind empty beers
I am all action.....I am the Law of attraction.....My greatest satisfaction
No excuses........
Why bother, it is just plan useless.........Nobody cares for excuses
I am here to reach far and beyond.....
Reaching a level that you could never, ever touch upon, I go far and beyond.......
Need I go on........
This has been etched in stone.......
If you choose to pick a bone, you will be left alone.......I holds my own.......Am I getting close to home.....
I was formed, created....Bred in the lineage of Kings......
I do hold my own......On this day, no need for me to play or portray......I lay hold as I claim my throne
I and I alone must hold my own.......
No matter how adverse........
Even when the goings get worse.....The Last shall go first....
For what it's worth, I hold true to my turf....
Afterall, my call is knowing my self worth......Hate it if you will, I know the truth hurts....
Hate me for my looks
Hate me for my smile
Hate me for my state of mind.....
These things I pay very little attention
Must I mention....frankly....I just don't have the time to focus on such simple minds
Afterall.....I am not made to fall, fumble nor fold
I must stand strong, boldly as I go
I have very little time for anything vague, the simpliest of matter
I refuse to go engaged nor get enraged with meaningless chatter
Truthfully, Nothing you say against me really dosen't matter
You give me dap when we rap, hug me, hold a smile
All the while....
Behind my back, You attack my character......Hoping for my downfall....Afterall, It is you, wishing to watch my dreams shatter
Still none of that dosen't even matter
It really dosen't
All of that pent up animosity, possibly feeding off my platter
Whatever, I am to clever.....I am laughing to myself.....It still dosen't matter...
In the end....God has the final say.......Watch out Now.
He is getting ready to do an open display.....
Knowing that.....I am better than okay.........All of that Hate in your heart
Your thirst to see me at my worst, wishing you could come first
This is my now season, blessing go dispursed..........The Last shall now be first
The confidence of knowing that I am well on my way........Let this be the day Saith the Lord!!!!!!!
I don't do try.....I set the bar very high
You can't teach it.....You just reach it
Don't bother to preach it if you can't reach it
I don't need a speech......You can't reach me with some blindside quote
Take note.........
Heed the Heart of a true champion
Lots of blood and sweat........Yet....You won't see me spending years crying tears to my peers behind empty beers
I am all action.....I am the Law of attraction.....My greatest satisfaction
No excuses........
Why bother, it is just plan useless.........Nobody cares for excuses
I am here to reach far and beyond.....
Reaching a level that you could never, ever touch upon, I go far and beyond.......
Need I go on........
This has been etched in stone.......
If you choose to pick a bone, you will be left alone.......I holds my own.......Am I getting close to home.....
I was formed, created....Bred in the lineage of Kings......
I do hold my own......On this day, no need for me to play or portray......I lay hold as I claim my throne
I and I alone must hold my own.......
No matter how adverse........
Even when the goings get worse.....The Last shall go first....
For what it's worth, I hold true to my turf....
Afterall, my call is knowing my self worth......Hate it if you will, I know the truth hurts....
Hate me for my looks
Hate me for my smile
Hate me for my state of mind.....
These things I pay very little attention
Must I mention....frankly....I just don't have the time to focus on such simple minds
Afterall.....I am not made to fall, fumble nor fold
I must stand strong, boldly as I go
I have very little time for anything vague, the simpliest of matter
I refuse to go engaged nor get enraged with meaningless chatter
Truthfully, Nothing you say against me really dosen't matter
You give me dap when we rap, hug me, hold a smile
All the while....
Behind my back, You attack my character......Hoping for my downfall....Afterall, It is you, wishing to watch my dreams shatter
Still none of that dosen't even matter
It really dosen't
All of that pent up animosity, possibly feeding off my platter
Whatever, I am to clever.....I am laughing to myself.....It still dosen't matter...
In the end....God has the final say.......Watch out Now.
He is getting ready to do an open display.....
Knowing that.....I am better than okay.........All of that Hate in your heart
Your thirst to see me at my worst, wishing you could come first
This is my now season, blessing go dispursed..........The Last shall now be first
The confidence of knowing that I am well on my way........Let this be the day Saith the Lord!!!!!!!
You can't teach it.....You just reach it
Don't bother to preach it if you can't reach it
I don't need a speech......You can't reach me with some blindside quote
Take note.........
Heed the Heart of a true champion
Lots of blood and sweat........Yet....You won't see me spending years crying tears to my peers behind empty beers
I am all action.....I am the Law of attraction.....My greatest satisfaction
No excuses........
Why bother, it is just plan useless.........Nobody cares for excuses
I am here to reach far and beyond.....
Reaching a level that you could never, ever touch upon, I go far and beyond.......
Need I go on........
This has been etched in stone.......
If you choose to pick a bone, you will be left alone.......I holds my own.......Am I getting close to home.....
I was formed, created....Bred in the lineage of Kings......
I do hold my own......On this day, no need for me to play or portray......I lay hold as I claim my throne
I and I alone must hold my own.......
No matter how adverse........
Even when the goings get worse.....The Last shall go first....
For what it's worth, I hold true to my turf....
Afterall, my call is knowing my self worth......Hate it if you will, I know the truth hurts....
Hate me for my looks
Hate me for my smile
Hate me for my state of mind.....
These things I pay very little attention
Must I mention....frankly....I just don't have the time to focus on such simple minds
Afterall.....I am not made to fall, fumble nor fold
I must stand strong, boldly as I go
I have very little time for anything vague, the simpliest of matter
I refuse to go engaged nor get enraged with meaningless chatter
Truthfully, Nothing you say against me really dosen't matter
You give me dap when we rap, hug me, hold a smile
All the while....
Behind my back, You attack my character......Hoping for my downfall....Afterall, It is you, wishing to watch my dreams shatter
Still none of that dosen't even matter
It really dosen't
All of that pent up animosity, possibly feeding off my platter
Whatever, I am to clever.....I am laughing to myself.....It still dosen't matter...
In the end....God has the final say.......Watch out Now.
He is getting ready to do an open display.....
Knowing that.....I am better than okay.........All of that Hate in your heart
Your thirst to see me at my worst, wishing you could come first
This is my now season, blessing go dispursed..........The Last shall now be first
The confidence of knowing that I am well on my way........Let this be the day Saith the Lord!!!!!!!
I don't do try.....I set the bar very high
You can't teach it.....You just reach it
Don't bother to preach it if you can't reach it
I don't need a speech......You can't reach me with some blindside quote
Take note.........
Heed the Heart of a true champion
Lots of blood and sweat........Yet....You won't see me spending years crying tears to my peers behind empty beers
I am all action.....I am the Law of attraction.....My greatest satisfaction
No excuses........
Why bother, it is just plan useless.........Nobody cares for excuses
I am here to reach far and beyond.....
Reaching a level that you could never, ever touch upon, I go far and beyond.......
Need I go on........
This has been etched in stone.......
If you choose to pick a bone, you will be left alone.......I holds my own.......Am I getting close to home.....
I was formed, created....Bred in the lineage of Kings......
I do hold my own......On this day, no need for me to play or portray......I lay hold as I claim my throne
I and I alone must hold my own.......
No matter how adverse........
Even when the goings get worse.....The Last shall go first....
For what it's worth, I hold true to my turf....
Afterall, my call is knowing my self worth......Hate it if you will, I know the truth hurts....
Hate me for my looks
Hate me for my smile
Hate me for my state of mind.....
These things I pay very little attention
Must I mention....frankly....I just don't have the time to focus on such simple minds
Afterall.....I am not made to fall, fumble nor fold
I must stand strong, boldly as I go
I have very little time for anything vague, the simpliest of matter
I refuse to go engaged nor get enraged with meaningless chatter
Truthfully, Nothing you say against me really dosen't matter
You give me dap when we rap, hug me, hold a smile
All the while....
Behind my back, You attack my character......Hoping for my downfall....Afterall, It is you, wishing to watch my dreams shatter
Still none of that dosen't even matter
It really dosen't
All of that pent up animosity, possibly feeding off my platter
Whatever, I am to clever.....I am laughing to myself.....It still dosen't matter...
In the end....God has the final say.......Watch out Now.
He is getting ready to do an open display.....
Knowing that.....I am better than okay.........All of that Hate in your heart
Your thirst to see me at my worst, wishing you could come first
This is my now season, blessing go dispursed..........The Last shall now be first
The confidence of knowing that I am well on my way........Let this be the day Saith the Lord!!!!!!!
Friday, April 30, 2010
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Not Yet Titled......
Though I have moved on, The sight of you still lingers thru my mind
So, So fine, at least that was my thought at one time
Your smile, A pleasantrie to me like the rays of sunshine
I guess for us to be, just seems like it was not the right tiime
I have many visions of you, a thought that is now a lost memory
Trying to figure... ...out... what kind of vibes are you sending me
Its as if this gift won't allow my heart to shift
It won't allow me to move away from thee
Pictures of you etched all thru my memory
I want to forget about you, but my heart won't allow me
I want to hate you, wondering if you even have thoughts about me
This reaction is much deeper than physical attraction
My actions wish to cease this plan, however, my hearts longs to understand
I wish for you to evaporate, as if you never existed
If only these feelings could be removed in this instant
Still, the love in me longs to give
This is no way for one man to live
To live, not knowing if you were the one to be
Wondering is this a truth that I am to see
My love for you runs deep, many nights, thinking of you, I cannot seem to sleep
I am lost without you, I just want you near, I just everything to be clear
Why would God allow are paths to cross, only to leave my heart naked....I am still not clear
I can still hear your voice whispering to my ears
If only you could be near, I just need to hear
I need to know your truest intentions
Written across my heart, grabbing my undivided attention
I just want to understand
Is having you a part of Gods plan
I am really trying to understand
I can only hope for an answer to the many question I pose
I just need to know, are you the one that God has chose
I suppose the answer will be revealed
Like I said before, You are to good to be real
Its not just your, smile, not even your sex appeal
Its is this deep connection towards you that I feel
Something of this magnitude......This has to be real
Until the time arrives.....I can only hold to what it is that I truely feel
I just need clarity, understanding.......I just need to know if these feelings I have towards you are for real......
Until then, I guess this is Gods way of telling me to remain still.......
So, So fine, at least that was my thought at one time
Your smile, A pleasantrie to me like the rays of sunshine
I guess for us to be, just seems like it was not the right tiime
I have many visions of you, a thought that is now a lost memory
Trying to figure... ...out... what kind of vibes are you sending me
Its as if this gift won't allow my heart to shift
It won't allow me to move away from thee
Pictures of you etched all thru my memory
I want to forget about you, but my heart won't allow me
I want to hate you, wondering if you even have thoughts about me
This reaction is much deeper than physical attraction
My actions wish to cease this plan, however, my hearts longs to understand
I wish for you to evaporate, as if you never existed
If only these feelings could be removed in this instant
Still, the love in me longs to give
This is no way for one man to live
To live, not knowing if you were the one to be
Wondering is this a truth that I am to see
My love for you runs deep, many nights, thinking of you, I cannot seem to sleep
I am lost without you, I just want you near, I just everything to be clear
Why would God allow are paths to cross, only to leave my heart naked....I am still not clear
I can still hear your voice whispering to my ears
If only you could be near, I just need to hear
I need to know your truest intentions
Written across my heart, grabbing my undivided attention
I just want to understand
Is having you a part of Gods plan
I am really trying to understand
I can only hope for an answer to the many question I pose
I just need to know, are you the one that God has chose
I suppose the answer will be revealed
Like I said before, You are to good to be real
Its not just your, smile, not even your sex appeal
Its is this deep connection towards you that I feel
Something of this magnitude......This has to be real
Until the time arrives.....I can only hold to what it is that I truely feel
I just need clarity, understanding.......I just need to know if these feelings I have towards you are for real......
Until then, I guess this is Gods way of telling me to remain still.......
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