How Long?!?............

It ups and just by passes my existence

Persistent calls to God and wondering why

Why such the long wait

Am I being punished for all my mistakes

Only so much of this heartache I can take

Everyday I awake, I give, I give

Do what I got to do, so I can live

Many deposits with no return

Expecting me to smile

All willie and optimistic

How long must I wait

Or will I spend my life

Paying for all my mistakes

Can't catch a break...going on 41

Not feeling to great, just want to catch a break

When will my time come

When it comes to love

Like an escaped convict

Always seems to be on the run

Do I need to hostage

Hold her with the gun

When is the winds of change

Going to blow my way

This is not about getting some

NO....not me, cause see

All I need is one....

So tell something GOD...

When is it going to happen

Don't have many more years to go

And must not forget, not young anymore

Waking this bed alone on the daily

Love, would you come and save me

This is deeper than want.......

Something my heart so badly needs

I seek, I search, this is becoming to much work...

And if another person gives me advice....

Telling you know......It will happen some day

Okay.....Okay, here that almost everyday....

There has got to be somebody.....after all

There a gazillions souls that dwell this earth

Still.....I wait, I wait, I search, I debate

I get pissed, get sad, get mad

]When I see that happy couple, wishing it was me

Taking romantic walks in the spring

But it seems all I run across is....

Fling

After

Fling

After

Fling

After 

Fling

My mind begins to ponder

Many days I wonder

These desires taking me under

But you promised me......

Yeah I know....It's not the season

So what's the reason, I am to.....

Dwell on my own....

I try to see the good in it all.....

But at almost 41, when is my time to come.......

Just so sick of waiting so long........

So when will my time be

When will the day come

When will this meant to be

When will this be a part of my reality

Just so sick of the waitin

Constant debatin...

One day all smiles

Another day all frowns

All of these up and downs

Do you even care

Do you hear me now

Or is this all a mistake

To ask of you....When...When

When will I get my turn

My chest burns nightly

Brighten my heart this very being

Cause see....Even though I'm a man

My heart has adsorbed enough of these lonely tears

Not trying to debate

Not hear to question you

But how long.....how long

How long must a man wait.........

Copyright(c)2011 RDS

Seeking cover........

Everything is slow pace

As I fall to slumber

I cover up my face

Thinking my life is a waste

Trying to sleep it off

So I cover my face

Don't want nobody

To see what

Dwells inside this

Troubled heart

This is nothing 

To do with fear

I want to speak out

But would anybody hear

So in the meantime

I cover my face

Shut my lids

Hoping when I awake

Todays pain

Tommorrow will be erased

I don't wanna talk

I just want to cover my face

This hovering cloud

Feeling such a disgrace

I wanna scream

Then I think

Contemplate

One breath to waste

I grab the pillow case

Just want to cover my face

So much I want to reveal

My soul is troubled

Depressions a rampid overkill

I just want to cover my face

Holding back the tears

Holding back the hurt

Feeling like my life

My life as I see it

Is nothing but......

One

Big

Waste

As I dwell this desolate place

Trying to fight it.....

Just want to cover my face.........

Just want this pain to evaporate

I need escape, loosing my faith

Running low on patience

Sick of the matrix, been so many places

Just want to cover my place

Can't take it.....I dwell this empty space..........

Copyright(c)2011 RDS

Our Love~A RDS Collaboration featuring Alfreda Ghee

Alfreda Ghee

Look at you with that bright smile

Those beautiful eyes that see right through me

That loving heart that I refuse to let go of

The soul of an angel that I will cherish for ever

Cant seem to get you out of my mind

Lying here in time and all I seem to see is you

Filling spaces but they are just empty without you

Losing my mind because you are out of my reach

Falling deeper and deeper into this dark hole that surrounds the ground

knowing that you are the desires seeking my every breath

Wanting you more and more within 

Yearning and burning for your loving touch

Calling out for your touch in the midst of the night

feeling that you cant be too far from that bright star

Loving you scores upon scores

Rushing and sweating to get to your door

Like a loading gun waiting to fire the desires that are stirred up inside

Firing with all ive got not to miss the spot on your chest

Aiming to win your love above all and place it upon my breast

Wishing that we could be closer to this we share

The flares that rise when you cross my mind

When it ignites we wont be able to fight this feeling that we feel

My entire life I have spent searching for you

Now its time you follow those lights to where we will make a home

For two to become one!!!

PoetauthorRoberto Denaro Styles

A shift in my heart

As I marinate 

Your many expressions of we

Penetrating the depths of my soul

I long your warmth at night

No longer shall my heart go lone

No longer shall I dwell distant and cold

I want to scream those three words

Shout them to every area code cause see.....

I didn't find you, you find me....

You brought forth discovery

Uncovering the true heart of me

Long buried under the rubbles

As I was lost, a shattered abyss

A lifeless shell dwelled this cold world

My precious pearl, my wonderful world

As I hearken to your calls.....We hold hands

Not for occasion....the persuasion of mode

Everything just feels right with you

You are the embodiment of me

You are my lost in every thought of thee

Your soulful sonnets wisk me away

By greater degrees

Knowing you are just a call away

Mutually understanding, you are my perfect plan devised

You are my actuality....my reality.....My every memory

You are my meant to be......Closer than family.....And yes....

You get me.....You know my fears......You understand me......

For each time we enevolope ourselves the whims of our affectionate favors shared......Your stare, that glare captures me as we lock......

Seeing not just the shell of thee......Seeing deeper inside me.....

Intense the chemistry......This surge of love penetrates me

Our blossom unfolds fate.....You brought the great within me.........

You are all that I can't be......You complete me, you don't just desire the idea of me.....

You desired every fold of my existence......Your presistence at times.....Had me questioning God like "What is this"

What is happening to me.....Suddenly, I can see us, matrimony.....My one and only......The first and last woman I will ever kiss.......

You cross my mind......Sincerly yours my dear.......

Fate has made it's way, opening the vaults of my heart, once headed for ruins.......Unexpected......This love I do receive........

You enhance me my precious misses......My queen.....My premadonna.......Bath me your delightful kisses......

My tasteful treat.......As we retreat to sollitude.....

Your love has awakened me.....My thirst you quench......

I need you closer to me........Every fold of you I need........

I heed your mating rituals......You are my divine......My spiritual connection......

As I reflect upon the thousand of days, a thousand ways I can say to you......How much I truly adore.....How much I truly love you.

Copyright(c)2011 Alfreda Ghee

Copyright(c)2011 Roberto Denaro Styles 

Precious Nightingale

I need to dwell spells of thee

Sweetened aromas therapeutic

Embellish me your crisp airs

Comforting the murmurs

Of hearts longing cries

You are my angel eyes

You are more to me

Than hips, dips and thighs

I desire your presences

Mentally

Emotionally

Spiritually

Physically

Heightened degrees

More than just ecstasy

You are the fulfillment

Of all my dreams

Come dwell with me

Grace me my precious Queen

Redeem your heart to thee

Dwell next to me

Passions looms

The stills of silence

Taken a back by the flutter

Of your heartbeat

Every breath you utter in distance

In rhythm

In sync

Just think, nothing could go greater

Than a pair such as you and me

You are my perfect fit

Like a pair of tims well fit

You are the better half of me

My persistence for thee

Is to exist forever as we

Just you and me

So fond….truly blessed

That we can share a love of this……..

Copyright©2011 Roberto Denaro Styles

Seeking It's Whereabouts

I’m a by product of the gentle stills of love

It brings me tranquility, helping to simplify

But for so long, feels like I am chasing a lie

A mirage to the human eyes……As I walk

Moving thru the after planes….

My heart has become a deserted terrain of ruin

I hear cupids call, in my mind…I seek logic

I seek reasoning…..God seasons my soul

These special ingredients, he implanted this 

Desirable recipe…..But the mind of me still questions

Who is called to me…..Who is meant to be…

Imprisoned to the anguish of heartache by greater degrees

I just want this to actualize, form my hearts eyes to see

Troubling thoughts evade my soul, so much has taken toll

My heart can’t withstand another ache….can’t withstand another bad break

Maybe I am just a realist……Only believing in what I see…..

Many desire a want for me, but they are not into to ME…

They are into the idea of me…..It’s not me they long for

They only desire the poetry in me…The trust in me has descended

Too much of this……..Wrong time, wrong place

Just a quick rendezvous at my place or there place

Then it’s more of the same….That’s why I need my space…….

Have I given up…….I wish not to entertain such a notion

Cause see……The heart of me, breeds loves purity

But the sin within me……Refuses to open my heart to see

It’s like a metal coated shell, severing my ties with all the alibis

All the deception, being the other man……pretending its all fine

In my mind, this blissful, happy ever after is only a dream in my scheme of thought

I bare my soul, I admit, I am a broken man…..Who would have thought

After all…..A man like me, quite enticing to the human eye

Been told of my handsome, features godly groomed…but to be specific

I too long that romance, as we advance the scales of the stars, gazing upon the moon

My heart bleeds for the happily ever after…..Or at least that used to be the case

Now…..I prolong this slow pace…….after all the hurt, consecutive times

Getting to know someone, finally feeling I can unwind with some quality time

A touch, a kiss….springs forth an unwarranted friendship…..

Left asking myself how did I get into this……All because of a kiss…..

Trying with everything to understand this, I tango this lovers matrix

Only to be placed on reserve……Waiting to be brought off the bench

Cause see…..I know what it is to be….Someone’s joy….momentarily…..

I know what it is to be the maintenance that provides a temporary fix…

I know what it is to be someone’s addiction….Nothing more….

This underscore derives my every predicament….Still asking God

What is this…..Why choose me…..You loosing me with all the woes

And by the way……You are moving to slow…..Yeah, I know that’s wrong for me to say….

My heart holds the torments of a lost runaway….Wandering aimlessly in this distorted wonderland

Where I am nothing more than just that make you feel good, late night after 2 am kind of man…

At least that’s the perception…….I don’t know about He….But as far as ME…..

I long to love strong, hard, mental and physical…..All just an instrumental process

For now……*sigh* I digress……Don’t know if I can handle the process

Of all the start over agains, taking chances, so many advances, only to become….Just a friend…

This road I have traveled long enough……For every murmur of my heart, throttles bewildered

They always say….Name it, claim it….But its been forty years now…..Forty years too long…

God please explain to me…..Because I simply can’t take it……Fill me where I am void

Cause my cup of love is running on empty…….

What can you tell, please explain, sick of the games……..

I need you to help me………My poetic confessions…….

Copyright©2011 Roberto Denaro Styles